Well of course it's not even 2 weeks since Leadville and I'm already thinking about next year. Thinking I want to do an international event. Zeroing in on a couple....these would be way harder than anything I've done, and in a foreign country. So of course how do I think about which one to do? Well of course I start by looking at the distance....can I go that far? Narrow the list down a little. Look at the elevation...hmm...can I tolerate going that high?....narrow it down more. Look at the climbing and descending...can I really be ready for that kind of climbing and descending training in Oklahoma?....narrow that list down more. No pacer? I've never completed a 100 miler without a pacer...the list is getting shorter. I'm not happy with the list I'm left with. I see these grand events and I get anxious/fearful...but...I WANT to do them.
I relate these fears in a question to a friend....do YOU think we can get me ready for something like this? Please, just tell me what I am capable of so I can just trust someone other than myself. I am reminded that I am trying to decide what to do based on knowing the outcome. I want to KNOW I will finish. Ahhhh, "but this is why we race"....the unknown, to see what will happen.
So, this weekend I will roll through thoughts and ideas, races and countries. THIS time without considering whether or not I can do it. Completely set that aside, and find what I really want to do and go for it.