Check out the song....the video is pretty cool too
Except instead of ...."They tell me I'm too young to understand..." I feel like, "They tell me I'm old enough to know better".
With 2 weeks to the race I've been training for all year, this is the point where I get pretty self absorbed, think lots about running, racing, life and everything seems too apply to what i'm thinking, doing, feeling. Pretty arrogant eh? I joke, but half serious too. This is also the point where I start questioning myself. I'd like to say it's because this is also the time that everyone but a small handful of people start questioning me and letting me know how crazy they think my running is. And it would be ok, if they thought it was crazy in a cool sort of way. The older adults in my life start offering their criticism guised as concern. Comments like, "So after this are you going to settle down?". They ask Todd, "So, what's she going to do after this?" ..like I've had some sort of midlife crisis and now that I have bought a proverbial race car will I be satisfied? Friends and acquaintances my age hide their jealousy in statements like, "What does your husband and kids think of your running?". The hardest part is not what they say, It's what I see in their faces, under their expressions. I see the disapproval, jealousy, and even animosity? And I start to feel guilty for this "craziness". The only ones I see true understanding and genuine happiness and enthusiasm in their faces are the young, my husband and kids, the employees at the restaurants I go to, the gas station clerk, and other ultra runners. I get the most criticism from the people I spend 60% of my life with...my colleagues and staff, they are the ones who offer the most critical digs (except my nurse whose eyes light up when I talk to her about running). Maybe I'm just too sensitive right now. Anyway....I love this song ;)