Up and down. Training and life right now. My training is literally up and down...climbing and descending and recovering in between (and I love it). Speedgoat is a little over 2 weeks away. I fluctuate between excitement and sheer terror. I read race reports and hear descriptions of running on terrain that resembles running on “baby skulls” referring to talus fields (baby skulls? really? who thinks of such?), of climbing hands and feet up walls at 10,000ft. Similarly, life is up and down. Mother in law with what looks like metastatic lung cancer. She saw the pulmonologist today and has procedure tomorrow for biopsy. He states, however, that what looks like metastatic lung cancer may actually be a dental infection that has seeded in her lungs. We’ll know more tomorrow after procedure. I should be thrilled at knowing this may not be cancer and may be remedied with antibiotics. Instead, I feel like crying, and crying because I’m crying. ...why am I crying when we now have hope? A bit of an emotional mess, but ok.